Hello!

Finally I am back! It is not like I was gone and haven’t been visiting, I have, I just never had time to actually write something. Well, maybe I had SOME time, just not enough to write something I would be happy with. And this needs to change because with this attitude you’ll never see any new post.. Besides I can’t get things perfect even when I am trying, so from now on I will try to get things done. Just done. With practice hopefully I’ll see some improvement though!

So I’ve been mama to Eryk for almost 4 months almost 5 months now (this is how much time it took me to write this…) and it has been WONDERFUL! Can’t tell you enough. Of course we had some problems (who doesn’t! 🙂 ), me being admitted to a hospital for once, but all of them seem so insignificant now. You know how they tell you that there is nothing greater than love that you have for your child? Well, I was skeptical a little bit. I thought it was some kind of a romantic exaggeration. But nope. It is not. Let me tell you. You can be dead tired, in pain, barely moving and yet you’ll just push through for this little one and even more, you’ll be happy to do that. And once they start smiling.. oh my… things you’ll do to see that smile again. And again. And again This gummy grin is all you’ll care about. It gets crazy to the point when after feeding him in the middle of the night, instead of putting him in his crib and going back to sleep myself, I keep sitting with him in my arms for the pure pleasure of doing so. And yes, it is 3am and yes, I did the same two hours earlier. And probably will two hours later. And will be exhausted in the morning. But who can really blame me. Cuddling him in my arms is so precious.

I haven’t shared much about myself in the past. It is difficult – sharing. I tend to over think things and for hours ruminate over what I have done (terrible, terrible). But it is time to change that, so, as a small baby 🙂 step let me share. Let me introduce Eryk to you. Here we are:

This picture was taken on May 11th, so it is not very recent, but it is one of my favorites as it was our first Mother’s Day. Eryk was almost 3 months then. And here is the grin (or what comes after the grin really) I was talking about:

Uff.. this is longer than I was planning it to be. But there is so much to tell! Oh, well. Maybe next time. Because there will be next time. I will be back with recipes in no time, but I am warning you here. You’ll get some updates on my motherhood here and there too, so don’t be surprised!

Anyway, I love my baby and my new life, but I missed you too. Just wanted you to know that.

Love,